new hurts old wounds

We all know that hearts are fragile...

But when do we stop the breaking? How do we heal? and When is enough? is there any?
When do wounds mend? How can it work out? When will it be ok again?
Why are we so vulnerable we prevent love from happening? When does the past no longer affect us? How do you trust... completely?
when will love be about the other person? and not about us getting hurt?
So many questions. so much maturity waiting to happen and reveal itself

I'm exhausted trying to answer these questions.

I also find myself waiting. I'm not sure what for. but something different in life. that will change the current one I'm in.
But what is it? Because until my heart changes, nothing around me will do anything new.

What change am I looking for?
I'm at my crossroad and I'm stopped. looking in each direction, trying to discern which way to go. So long as its the narrow path, wont I be ok?

I was thinking...over thinking, theres just too many scenarios, to analyze. . . you're my dream please come true! -Relient K

Nothing fits as right : /
<3

On another note :
Black Friday:
Madness! ... Devotion. (to shopping!)... there is something severely wrong with this...
(yes I'm a black friday freak) I will be up at 3 am...
Maybe this is an example of where my life is off balance! ? hahaha.