I feel like my life is one big to-do-list
my whole life is made up of lists.
I love them actually.
However they can stress me, especially when things aren't getting crossed off as fast as I'd like them to.
and at what pace should things get crossed off? I mean, everything has a time, right? "Season for ALL things"...
I struggle with My time vs. God's time. same with both our wills.
I think so much into everything I drive myself crazy.
I seem to have great advice, but can't seem to follow it
and I find myself becoming so damn lazy.
physically and intellectually. maturely as well...
I keep speaking rudely to the ones i love and acting on no patience, being a horrible example to my sisters.
Its part my influence that will help mold them into how they will handle interactions with others. I dont want to be responsible for them being screwed up or mean.
I hate being so irritable ... I want to be soft spoken and gentle and kind.
I want to be disciplined. and smart.
I want to gain wisdom.
So I must first fear the Lord. Prov 1: 7
It seems that life is off track and chaotic when the Lord is out of the schedual.
and truly, honestly, how much of a "sacrifice" is time out of our day to read his Word? or to pray and to just spend time. ?! can we even call it a sacrifice?
there was a debate a while ago on the radio about having a devotion time on the toilet. (two birds with one stone)
I say, absolutely. if the God you are praising, and living for is as Holy, as Powerful, as Great as defined.... than you should be ashamed to approach him with your drawrs down! .... you should hide your face.
The God who saves, should be given more than that. dont you think?
entirely separate:
I am learning the tight reign on your tongue, everlasting patience, kindness, gentleness, self control...
ALL TOGETHER!
its rough.
its a harsh ugly to face.
I'm missing key Christ-like characteristics...
not only that, but the lack of each one, is so deep rooted in behavioral habits that have taken over most my life. How does one un-do all of that?!
definitely not without God's grace.
Hopefully I can be a quick learner... and turn things around... before its too late...
I dont want to have caused anyone permanent damage.
Time heals all wounds....
How much time?
Do we have time?
Why time?
Why waste time?!
How should we, and could we spend time? ... to use it the best way?
<3
About Me
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1 comment:
these are all very good thoughts. Much like you are proud of me, I could not be more proud of you. The person you are now and the person you were are completely different. I am looking forward to school with you and getting to share life with you every day. I think you put too much pressure on yourself when it comes to things and if you just let go a little bit and just be, you will have a blast and still be an awesome example. From what I can see, as your sister, you have been an example of how to always turn to God. That is what I have learned from you. I used to do to do lists until one day I decided to make a to be list instead. That left me feeling more fulfilled at the end of the day.
love you sis.
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